Hi Melissa, thank you for your response. It seems we share many similarities. I was married for nineteen years to a man I knew well and who is the father of my two daughters. Although I wasn’t in love with him when I left him, I loved him and still do. How can we regret being married to someone who is the reason that our children exist? We will always have that bond.
The man I was writing about I married because I thought he was the kindest and most loving man I’d ever met. Everything I thought he was, he wasn’t. I can’t even say his name without shuddering. He’s not a terrible person, but the experience was terrible.
I will not be second guessing myself about a future relationship because I don’t plan to have one. I’m done. I’m in my late 60s and have now reached the point in my life where I really want to live by myself. I love my life just as it is. It’s not because of any bad experiences. It’s just the stage of my life.