Hi Melissa, thank you for your response. It seems we share many similarities. I was married for nineteen years to a man I knew well and who is the father of my two daughters. Although I wasn’t in love with him when I left him, I loved him and still do. How can we regret being married to someone who is the reason that our children exist? We will always have that bond.

The man I was writing about I married because I thought he was the kindest and most loving man I’d ever met. Everything I thought he was, he wasn’t. I can’t even say his name without shuddering. He’s not a terrible person, but the experience was terrible.

I will not be second guessing myself about a future relationship because I don’t plan to have one. I’m done. I’m in my late 60s and have now reached the point in my life where I really want to live by myself. I love my life just as it is. It’s not because of any bad experiences. It’s just the stage of my life.

Writer and copyeditor. “What doesn’t kill us gives us something new to write about” ~ J. Wright

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