I may not have respected life back when I was twenty the way I did when I was forty, but I still understood the seriousness of my/my father’s choice. I was haunted by my conscience afterward, and that’s when I began to have anxiety attacks. Every time I held a baby I thought about it. And with every single one of my hospitalizations during my terrifying pregnancy with my first daughter, I thought about it. I felt so guilty that I thought maybe I was going to lose my baby as a punishment for what I did when I was twenty.
I’m beyond thinking there is a punishment for abortion — way beyond that. But I still never take abortion lightly. Ever. I am 100% for women’s rights to our own bodies. 100%. BUT an abortion in my mind should NEVER be a means of birth control. And I just don’t understand whoever wrote this article about how it’s just so easy in San Francisco, California. It’s as if she was saying, “Come on, friends. If the condom doesn’t work, hey, just come on up to San Francisco, I’ll drop you off at the clinic, and then we’ll go for Thai.”